Because all parents seem to fundamentally use the same lines on their kids. With that slight annoyance & 16 years of what I have learnt over the years & a healthy dose of thinking I realised even though those comments, on my parents behalf never seemed really important because of there repetitive nature I think I registered every single thing to some sub-conscience level.
I was sitting and analysing my self & realised I don't have any issue expressing my emotions. Maybe thats a product of my mums over protective nature from which I felt the need to constantly remind her exactly how much it peeved me. So I guess being able to express my emotions at home around the people who are going to stick by me forever makes it easier for me to be able to express my emotions around random people because the thing is they're not forever & I might as well get my point across if they're getting theirs across.
It's also let me be a better friend in a way. Where, I talk things through, well make a conscious effort to talk things through. Because whats the point of pretending it's all good when at the back of your head it erks you so much.
Yeah I don't like that feeling.
When I say, we need to talk I mean it.
My dad has practically drilled it into my head "number one first" *index finger vigorously poking himself*
I've learnt that it's okay to prioratise myself because otherwise how am I going to spread happiness to others if i'm not, or be reliable when I tell people i'll be there for them when I can't even be there for myself. And from there I guess there was that constant reminder to no matter what "always be down to earth." Because really, who does like a stuck up bitch?
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